Tuesday, October 21, 2008

The Future

All of today I was thinking about it, about the future. about my future. about everybody's future. Thinking about this damn blog also, I've got too many things going through my head that I know I should write down. But I just don't know how to put them into paragraphs. This memory of mine is quickly fading also, I think I will be one of the youngest people to have... see I cant even remember what its called. One of my friends told me a joke the other day, it goes

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I have ADD
Hey look at that bike.

Oh yeah, its called Alzheimer's.  It like in my dreams last night... I remember finding a cool big apartment but the coolest room was in the middle of a building, like a college building with stairways around it so that everyone could see what you were doing in the room. Then there was an earthquake that was really crazy. then I was playing Guitar hero at my sisters house and this team of people came in that were against new video games and only liked old ones like Keen and Monkey Island, and at the end of all of that ruckus I was actually in a game battling a superboss. Like I was Mario or something. 

The moral of all this rambling is to show you about how hard it is to think about this damn thing called the future because my mind is going into loops of loops and when it comes to thinking about the future I already have too much on my mind.

This I know. I want to go back to school so I can take some classes and get something to focus on. I want to be able to hold a conversation with someone like I used to be able to... without getting drunk.  I want to have a hobby or something like that because I only can really stop thinking about everything when I'm watching t.v or reading. fuck. Whatever. I want world peace.

Why do girls wear perfume and makeup?
because their ugly and they smell bad.

thats my favorite.


Monday, October 13, 2008

Cabin Fever

Irritability, listlessness, and similar symptoms resulting from long confinement or isolation... etc. Blah blah blah.  I'm pretty sure that today I almost packed up my life savings and drove to San Francisco because of cabin fever. Lets add a haha right there to make it seem like I was joking and we are on our way.  Does it seem kind of stupid to anyone else that A person can feel so confined while they are perfectly able to walk out the door and find everything.  And yet... it seems like its even should I say... out of the question.  Its like you can't even take that first step because you haven't taken that first step.  As soon as you think about how tedious that first step seems, it just adds to the fever and it starts running rampant. Well the answer to my own rampant case of self inflicted cabin fever is goodbye. I'm outta here bitch.

How


                                                         From San diego, here I go